I'm 12 weeks pregnant now, and feeling quite a bit better lately. I don't feel nauseous as much anymore, but I still have moments where I just don't feel quite right. While the 3rd trimester of pregnancy is exhausting and painful, I hate the 1st trimester the most. I'm thankful I'm almost done with it. Life during the 1st trimester feels like walking through fog... Fog that smells bad, tastes bad, makes you sick, and knocks you out. I think I'm finally crossing over into clear, clean air again and I can breathe easier. After my son was born, just THINKING about my 1st trimester of pregnancy made me feel nauseous again. But when I got pregnant this time I was actually surprised by how miserable it was. How easily we forget the misery of pregnancy. I'm pretty sure God makes us forget so that we continue having babies.
My hubby got a new job (yeah, another one). He was training for management at Applebee's when TGI Fridays called, out of the blue, and told him they had an offer for him. He went in to talk to them and he was offered a management position. Friday's matched his training pay at Applebee's and told him he'd only be training for 4 weeks. After 4 weeks of training he will officially be a manger and he will start getting paid the salary they promised him (it's a pretty good salary too!). Applebee's never told him how much he'd be paid after training or how long he'd be training, so Eric decided to accept the offer at Fridays. He was supposed to start his new job yesterday, and then he was supposed to start today. But they were having scheduling issues and he's now supposed to start work on Friday morning.
I'm nervous about him going back to work, he helps me out so much with our son when he's at home, but I'm also excited he's going to be working again. I'm excited for financial security. I'm excited to buy things for our kids, pay our bills, and go on dates with Eric. I don't consider myself a materialistic person. I don't consider myself very high maintenance. I don't care if I go my whole life without cable, or without the newest technology, or without expensive jewelry and clothes. I don't have any of those things right now. I don't have a cell phone. Who doesn't have a cell phone? I know 12 year olds who have cell phones. I have hardly any clothes that fit me at all, let alone a closet full of "designer" clothes. But I really value the ability to go out for dinner and a movie with my husband, the ability to buy gifts for each other and our children on holidays and birthdays, and I miss having a full tank of gas in the car which allows us to "go for a drive" when we're bored or need to get out of the house. I want to go to the mall or the store and buy a few things, because as a girl, I enjoy the act of "shopping". I want to be able to randomly say, "Hey, let's go out for ice cream!" and actually be able to afford it. And if this job works out for my husband we should be able to do all those things. We should be able to LIVE again. I feel like I've lost myself so much the past year or 2, because I'm constantly stuck at home, doing the same old thing every day and I'm never really excited about anything. I never have moments anymore where I feel special, joyous, and adventurous. I have cabin fever to the extreme and the thing I miss the most about having money is the freedom to do something, anything. There's really nothing you can do when you don't have any money, you can't even drive to a park or to the mall for "window shopping" because you don't have the gas to spare. You're literally stuck at home or within walking distance of home, and to be completely honest, I'm getting tired of being "home". I want to go out in the world and see things, hear things, taste things, and experience things. That's what life is all about.
My hubby got a new job (yeah, another one). He was training for management at Applebee's when TGI Fridays called, out of the blue, and told him they had an offer for him. He went in to talk to them and he was offered a management position. Friday's matched his training pay at Applebee's and told him he'd only be training for 4 weeks. After 4 weeks of training he will officially be a manger and he will start getting paid the salary they promised him (it's a pretty good salary too!). Applebee's never told him how much he'd be paid after training or how long he'd be training, so Eric decided to accept the offer at Fridays. He was supposed to start his new job yesterday, and then he was supposed to start today. But they were having scheduling issues and he's now supposed to start work on Friday morning.
I'm nervous about him going back to work, he helps me out so much with our son when he's at home, but I'm also excited he's going to be working again. I'm excited for financial security. I'm excited to buy things for our kids, pay our bills, and go on dates with Eric. I don't consider myself a materialistic person. I don't consider myself very high maintenance. I don't care if I go my whole life without cable, or without the newest technology, or without expensive jewelry and clothes. I don't have any of those things right now. I don't have a cell phone. Who doesn't have a cell phone? I know 12 year olds who have cell phones. I have hardly any clothes that fit me at all, let alone a closet full of "designer" clothes. But I really value the ability to go out for dinner and a movie with my husband, the ability to buy gifts for each other and our children on holidays and birthdays, and I miss having a full tank of gas in the car which allows us to "go for a drive" when we're bored or need to get out of the house. I want to go to the mall or the store and buy a few things, because as a girl, I enjoy the act of "shopping". I want to be able to randomly say, "Hey, let's go out for ice cream!" and actually be able to afford it. And if this job works out for my husband we should be able to do all those things. We should be able to LIVE again. I feel like I've lost myself so much the past year or 2, because I'm constantly stuck at home, doing the same old thing every day and I'm never really excited about anything. I never have moments anymore where I feel special, joyous, and adventurous. I have cabin fever to the extreme and the thing I miss the most about having money is the freedom to do something, anything. There's really nothing you can do when you don't have any money, you can't even drive to a park or to the mall for "window shopping" because you don't have the gas to spare. You're literally stuck at home or within walking distance of home, and to be completely honest, I'm getting tired of being "home". I want to go out in the world and see things, hear things, taste things, and experience things. That's what life is all about.
YEah!! So happy about the job!! How awesome. I hope he loves it and it works out wonderfully. I am really not into clothes that much either, but yes, knowing that you can go out and buy something if you would like really does bring security.
ReplyDeleteI pray that your 1st trimester passes smoothly & quickly. Congrats on Hubby's new job. Now, maybe you get go out & get new yarn, too. ;-)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on making it to 12 weeks!! I totally hear you on the financial side of things. Sometimes just being able to do the simple things make us the happiest...definitely not the closet full of designer clothes or taking the most exotic trips.
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