I'll probably regret writing such a grumpy post...

We've spent a year trying to put together a stable life. We were doing well, and then new circumstances came up that could cause us to lose it all if we don't find a solution FAST.  I'm so tired of us getting knocked down.  We're good people with good values.  We love each other and our children with every fiber of our being, and yet it's like we're doomed to failure at every turn.  Every time we get knocked down again I get more and more depressed.  It's hard to even appreciate good moments anymore because every time we have a happy moment, there are at least 2 awful ones coming our way.

I wish I could hide in my bed until things are resolved.  If I didn't have kids, that's exactly what I'd probably do.  As a housewife, I don't have any control over any of the finances.  I don't make any money, I don't spend any money, I don't work, I CAN'T work (because we wouldn't have a babysitter).  I'm at the mercy of others all the time.  And I have an anxiety issue to top it all off... I'm nervous and stressed out even when things are going fine.  It's just overwhelming when things are going wrong.  I literally can't cope.

I don't want to be rich, I just want to get the bills paid every month with enough extra that we'd be okay if an emergency arises.